Hey there guys. I thought that I'd make an update about my current state at the moment. As of late, 2017 has gotten to be a pretty bad year for me. My autistic brother's condition grows worse. And when his condition grows worse, so does my family's physical, mental and emotional health. Lately I've been feeling incredibly depressed and stressed due to the environment here. And thus, hindering my artistic ability.
I feel so uninspired now doing the same type of art over and over everyday. I wish to do more interesting work. I wish and try my best to take my talents to the above and beyond! I just... can't do it when that passion is being buried by the dirt of a hard life. There is so much to do. So many ideas! If only I had the energy to finally release these pieces.
Besides art, my school life has been affected as well. My grades have dropped a bit and have been fluctuating around a few A's, B's, C's and D's. I'm trying my absolute best to keep my grades up in such a life. It's hard though when all your mind wants is peace and happiness. Though, I continue to try anyways. I can't let something like this ruin my future.
Physical health wise, my abdomen area has been ranging from feeling okay to feeling bad. The cramps when trying to go to the bathroom is sometimes unbearable. I do believe that this pain is caused by my current situation. I would imagine that so much stress would put such a toll on your body. Also, I've noticed that sometimes I end up with uncomfortable tension feeling within the arch of my feet at times. I don't know why this happens and why it's so random. But, I am a little worried about it.
I'm also feeling quite worried about my family and friends. As mentioned before, my bestie is still going through the early cancer situation. I'm worried deeply for her and pray that something awful doesn't happen to her. As with my family, they've been under as much stress as I've been. Dealing with my little brother and the stress that comes along with the situation is crushing on all of us. I just with there was something I could really do to ease this pain from all of this. This isn't fair at all that we must suffer like this...
To anyone who has read this, thanks for taking the time and understanding. I'm trying my best to work through life and provide you with art and other such things. I'm sorry for releasing these kinds of journals so frequently. I really don't mean to depress you guys. I just... really needed to get some things off of my chest since it's becoming quite a burden for me to hold all of it in.
Anywho, I hope you guys have a wonderful day/night. Please stay safe and be happy.
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